My tether’s end is evident, everything is vomit Lacking disciple, it is crystal things have gotten Way beyond chaotic, catastrophic Pollock Narcotics have me palmed, out of hand, out of pocket Sun rise, descent, wrong side of the weekend Exemplify the feeling, diary of a ‘feces' Expire neath a ceiling, serotonin depleted Creature out of reach, scared, broken in to pieces 404 sequence, ellipsis in parenthesis Lip spill illegible, unequipped for sentences Skeleton’s collecting for another swift with pegasus Post haste, amputate my face from the premises Loneliest of exodus, roaming in the nescience Coping in a nebulous attempted grope of present tense Essence slowly festering, petrified the evergreen Nestling attention, to the detriment of everything Said I wouldn’t get this way, experimented sparingly Regiment has levelled up from rarely to a therapy Legend’s what they said despite its common regularity Tyranny has iron willed this friar into heresy October of my discontent open up for ogre love Rota's coming to collect, happiness I owe is up Every thing I couldn’t see reflected, I was known to judge Poker faced rejected by the joker time to sober up So I’m going Monk I’m going Monk I’m going Monk I’m going Monk Straight edge to the whetstone, acute to the nutrition Shredding of 'Depeche mode’ deducing own opinion's Fasting of the heart, brain scrubbing out the system Suddenly I find my self, the subject of suspicion Prefer you to conform, help affirm in our position Deserters put to sword, for perverting our traditions I’m sorry but I’ve dropped it all for optimal cognition This abacus a matter where subtraction trumps addition Anxiety the giant that sidles up rather quietly Silently inside it speaks, denying my proprietary Societies advise, no assignment in sobriety Prioritise imbibing inline with designed propriety Consumption didn't progress beyond an adolescent Culture where excessive indulgence is termed impressive Potential day to day, where wasted is the preference Not only never questioned, Its What’s to be expected Not to be invective but this doctrine of ingestion Intoxicant's embodied in the spirit of possession Near impossible ejection with identity invested Promoted, only remedied contempt for my reflection Crossing of the threshold, sequestered from all friendship The solitary exit, was not in a rejection Pretentious as an enemy who’s never there quench with I know I did but no offence had ever been intended I’m going Monk I’m going Monk I’m going Monk I’m going Monk

Beneath the harvest moon's reach, far from the heavens. Darkness loom's deep - heart full of penance Dread at his zenith, pedigree behemoth, Who's sentencing condemn's every enemy as present Effigy of men's strength fed into its whispering Sophistry at length, pledged endless inner bickering The monster eating ‘Thenn’s’ treads foggy due’s mystery Gremlin’s in the temple, disassemble into entropy Wolf pelt’s busting through the sheep skin, summer… Wane’s - wake deep stark beast from his slumber Concerned with opinion's nothing kind is uttered Night king of Arcadia calling down the thunder Pray to a hunter, troublesome hyena Vexed by the silver, apex arena's Savour every femur, lycanthropy and hellish scream's Part man, part fang - banishing this self esteem No love No trust No hugs Bone crunch A howling x2 Wretched is the ever present itch to demoralise Contradict peasant niche, fresh flesh to mortify Cauterising demon- credence beat to pieces, Yield no thesis, peel seam's at there weakest. Deepest keep a fantasy, grandeur and majesty Briar rose strangling, sleeping beauty’s tangled dreams Galavant gallantry, chatter of the ladders peak, Belief pattern's shatter we gather where adder sneaks Active disengaging from displays of your affection Abhor J’dore, disdain pure, latent with depression Loathing holds me closely to the point of violation Ogle doubt, holding out for tot’s annihilation Self destructive, cower in the shadow of obscurity Vomiting behind veneer and swallow insecurity Yearn to be a better man but petty rests internally Seven circles deep merging the infernal ‘we' No love No trust No hugs Bone crunch x4 A momentary mindfulness reflects a truer nature To syphon pride from ivory bind's humiliation The bull it is a china shop, thats why there's no escaping Abide the shit, good boy don’t sit, bite the hand that changes Idolised pious lives, high light's in a manger Envious of stranger's, just to spite them with a failure Disguised as a saviour enlightened by the sabre Heckle every Jekyll hiding ‘Hayden’ in a Vader (innovator) Internal is the skirmish rarely rises to the surface Night lit the circuits curse of hibernating circus Kindness is a purchase, biding time till I return it Could I yearn in service, smile and never let a word slip? Casually man or beast no better than the other What I drag beneath my feet contender for the rudder The chapters that I feed can be a bastard or a lover Shadow asks of me, as over sow's the under

Resigned from the hive, minding my own bees wax fly intertwined, inciting a slow relapse Detach "No fap",‘Misogi’ in detox Entry not permitted, without intermittent three knocks. Noticeably absent, oxytocin chosen slump Holding Interaction's hostage in a cove of books Sewing up my chrysalis missed text's over looked Missed you at the last ’syndicate’, chap, hope your good Control; "incoming message a deaf omission Disinterested signal, block inept transmission Proficient in every answer omitting my addition Sick intuition, of Inkling that scripts a prison Trojan horse whispering, 'old 'timey', cadence Guilty hibernation - versus - pride of isolation Steady meditation, diamond dilation Ego inflates, with each posed annihilation Try escape from, discrepant predicament’s Thinking it equips you with ambivalent certificate’s Living with the citizens, unhinging and dissonant Equivocating stigmatist, gimmicking "don’t give a shit.” Inner lip a battle ground, shadowy antagonist Abandon ship and cannabis, haggling for amethyst The catalyst, misconstrued even to you, while Searching for yourself in tiny pieces that you lose Absconded to a quandary, Longing for camaraderie, Laundering of consciousness,’Abaddon’ has swallowed me Apologies, for ignorance I'm plotting trips across the sea I walk between the waves, airy ferry balsa piece Caller bleeps, un qualified for vibe incited Dial every Friday, deny that your in a hiding Sizeable giants testify to worlds colliding. Then every other weekend till the line goes silent Compendium of Zen, Dao of how to find him Requiem for then, gouge the eye’s of the horizon Spirit guided spider weaving dream life undeciphered Try and try and try only finds you none the wiser How comforting, summing up existence in a drudgery Humbled beast succumbing to the luxury of suffering Crush and guzzle mulberry, stumbling recovery Annulling, any pull between the push of self discovery Monkey trouble shooting brain fumbling from DNA Mumble, affirmations juggling a PMA Need to say, personal improvement, turns gratuitous Luminous truth’s grew through mulch to chew us up Pursue the dust, raise the flag, chasing down the rising sun, He’s never coming back, hardly recognise who does Never felt alive, Medusa eyeing Midas touch Excel at temple life, sky breathing, troop's of flying dove

Kameoka west of Kyoto, Western hobo, guest entrance from ‘Osho'. He said throw no punch, head is ‘dojo’ ‘Hosenji’ Zen of tatami toe touch Comfort’s, home, crutch, descend from old bus The centre's chants (Chance), let go of the roads dust Shoji opens, paper thin this huger grows. Have you had your breakfast? Yes. Scrub your bowl. Humble throne, sit's low in the undergrowth Stone 'Tatagatha', one who comes and goes Farm your piece, intend no harm, utter koan’s Seed, sow, sow, seed repeat, bow, mutter NO. Rise, sit, eat, sleep and come to toll 'Ta’chi', clean, chant, breath, if summoned - go 'Daruma' robe ironed neatly one must fold A hundred years told, yet none had touched the goal. Thumb to scroll, each letter was something gold Keeping score, each thorn, pulled from the soul Cut the moat, gate bolted, undisclosed I couldn’t know, buddha come’s to unbeknown Come the snow’s, wind's blow the chill exploits’ Polish mirror, that reflection you still avoid, Why have you come? To summon Sigmund freud? Restless child, still looking to fill the void Lotus of blues, in a lonely pursuit Oblique tutelage, dude the ‘Roshi's' aloof “‘Sumimasen’”? boney digit motion's the moon, Glare suffer's not, the slightest notion of fool’s Not noble or shrewd, feeling close to vamoose After openly issued a holy show of recluse Bloated ‘egoic’ buffoon’s only moment of truth Intruding from deluded phoney hokey cocoon Faux yogi un-groomed, mosquito biting the bull Uniting pios nihilism in leviathans hull Hydrogen skull, dive inside Poseidon's occult Blind leading blind every idol is false Open eyelid’s recall, empty vibe's in the hall Advice from the wall’s … falling silent and null Wind chime's tides of violence, denied to a fault The hammer drops… Trident diamond assault Molten rise of the throat, only serves an obstruction Presumption and distrust, obscuring the ‘nothing’. Rinzai’s there,there, time kicks the bucket Thirty lashes bludgeon, impermanence interrupted. Gold leaf, empty fist, quick wit desires duel Breath deep, shit, sleep, eat, piss inspired fool. Persist in this folly existing a melancholy. Sit and listen to the wind till the epiphany calls me.

Liar, preaching to the choir. Conceited by achievements, reaching through the briar. Editing a remedy for everything defiant Convenient how redeeming the beliefs beating Goliath. Bleating by the bias, abiding the traditions Timely justified positions, verify existence, The essence of a deficit, the pestilence of luggage Resting heavy emphasis, resenting empty dungeon’s Dismissive and uninterested, populace of hypocrite's Just because they listen in, does not mean they give a shit Grimace to the disconnect, window of this discontent Living fingered in cement, amidst the drifting silhouettes Liquorice sipping up, shit eating grin of Icarus Still rigorous embitterment, population prison bitch Waiting for the day I feel shame for feigned indifference Trekking through the wilderness with empty zen of ignorance Chemical reactions grant access to climax of The worst kind of pain sustained through bad attraction The bastard of attachment, groping in the black Live disjointed in this disappointed satisfaction I’m stumbling, solitary coven's leads to humbling Coveting a buddha shedding blood against what shouldn’t be Each uttering, an underworlds worth of shovelling Lesson being, confess necessity of suffering Coward, preaching from the tower. Skive behind the ivory, ‘Metatron' has soured Wilting of the flower, relentless is the hour Potential reached decent, dreamt deeper into dour Solace of the unloved, indulgent to amuse you Wallow in the undone, Dao has been reduced to Comfort of conundrum’s slump towards a use to Function kept a numbskull plunging for seppuku Opus expiration, magnum snipes the temple Otiose creation go unravel, disassemble! For the entertainment of the total unessential No one knows his pain till he puts it to the pencil Destiny a fiction, pass on what is meant for me Each path's affliction, bastard of the entropy Faith self sustained self replenishing allegedly Whats the fucking point? The Void will claim everything Shedding to a skeleton, pendulum of Benjamin Time’s grinds’s events fine renders rhyme irrelevant Effort’s dressed up, as a fungus of ‘rupicolous' Ineffectual quest desperate for significance Selfish only ever is that drive for omnipotence Getting by your self, timeless this predicament Harmful Ignorance no bliss grew in spite of it. Submit to darkness, lit, true enlightenment.

Alpha waves to beta, terraforming zeta Sigma sits ignoring that poor rapport in data. Taken pages cant quite make the equation Brain lays the reigns to inclination's you get laid with Trivial engagement, its considered dangerous Social isolation fright ignited by a cavemen Communicate through rudimentary abasement Till its safe to resume luminous self- effacement Destiny - adjacent, politely fucking smiling Get her next time, right, denial is vile thing, Attempt at representing once essence a defiant king Passing for apathetic adolescent lion prince With a fraction of the passion, life deprived of niacin. Bias in the alibi and spying from the cryogen Your cycle pedals sceptics to cite you as the rifle man The obstacle your conduct's not possible of violence Your silence, not quite exciting her curiosity A safe bet's not what she’s seeking between odyssey's At best an oddity, not capable of audibly Expressing what you want, beyond the odd cacophony (Cough) Ee Ee! Whats a convo- between sparks For a self styled Iliad I’m kind of a… Idiot, if its the wrong word I think of it Babbling equivalent of infant dimwit scribbling Scored some solitude, sorry dude, nobody followed you Obvious you wallow in a positively hollow move Social engagements, I'm prone to stay away from Emotions like a vacuum, floating in open space. Could be, loves just hovering in the unseen Wonder should we subtly, stutter up and come clean Scrubbing up try to look my double as he could be Last minute rethink, button up for a hoody Matters of the heart induce savagery you can’t undo Attractive paths and avenue, that you simply can’t pursue Easier misleading and feeding a feeling that is doomed Romanticising unrequited plight of a man marooned Love potentials fester, with actual held credentials Pit against friendship, ephemerally sentimental Confidential exploits, disjointed and resentful Mental being pretzeled, calendar uneventful Only time of day I gave, affection that had gone astray Left at intersection, right, destiny has got away Always notions lingering, maybe somethings meant to be Solely prone and uninvolved I'm loneliest at the interweave Think I’ll leave last train waves out of the station Self preservation - incentive to stay away from Aching cause no real risk was ever taken Combination bogus faith, patient imagination

So April came to conclusion, the illusion Being shattered, what you knew was a delusion. Every human’s tune move's to a certain music The truth is, blues it, isn’t always protruding Pen the personal for a purge doesn’t come easy Word’s surgical, never opened up with the feelings Especially with grieving go ahead keep believing Your doing fine, Zen the art of internal screaming A meteor hit earth, dusted his children Desolation lay, life remained for civilians. My brothers face told, irrefutable change Tangible truth screwed us, never knew it the the same What pop’s done, washed up, passing a toxin Once established as the rock, collapse wasn't an option Cashed in, the ferrymen came to collect him Right there and then I knew I had to protect them Don’t know if my logic was solid or just impatient If I'm strong enough for everyone, father, where not forsaken Honoured or inflation, courageous or dim? The view immune to your pain is a dangerous thing The truly vaporous live, emotion isn’t the enemy Embrace open abyss, shedding light as a remedy Devote to total eclipse, quench the embers of everything Trust in crepuscule instruction, just let it be A happy chap does’t dash after enlightenment Pageant act, the faster he fucking hides from it Olive branch master of solitary environment's. Expires when a crisis doesn’t buy your requirements. I abandoned brother’s n coloured it under buddha hood Shunned woman’s love, as something that wasn’t good enough. Only when I dug the low’s, was I shown the up and up Failure to compose, lotta a coulda would a should a done No divide exists, define what's divine and isn’t A shining shit, hiding with shield of nihilism I dared not listen, anguish adopts resistance Instead of baring witness and honouring existence Unique wizard, grief, precise, taking time Wind forward a year shedding tears, waving tides Cries revered… mother of all releases Greatest gift I gave me? permission to fall to pieces I am NOT ok, so be damned pedantic perjury Worship grief the god of what is certain we Free everything, your feeling's matter fervently Caterpillar sprouting wings passing on internal peace Can not abide alone, disaster the greatest master piece Letting go control, imposed solo colonoscopy’s Philosophy of no one, sobered up in the after breeze Lost at sea, exposed, open to anarchy

After collapse of the statutes’s for growing christian infantry Each house hold slowed its procreating symphony’s Born is little me, snug amongst his four siblings The youngest of the twinkling ocular love inklings Of our father and dear mama's untroubled symmetry Hugging one another was the sum of our conditioning Even with us kidling's Quibbling for ‘Kipling's' Humility instilled in - every single little feat Little did we see, the road ahead was tread in jeopardy The depth's of a dark depression and harsh lethargy Protecting me from everything, from infant to steady teen Weathering the storm, so can I adorn memories A treasury, how we stand together has amazed me Safely navigating, the seas forever wavy You zany fucking bastards, laughter’s been are A.C If I’m half as strong as you say, heck, that's how you raised me Every kind ear, learned words of encouragement Every meal, every bus fair, all the nurturance Shelter from the turbulence you decent epidermis In all earnestness I’m forever at your service. An orator of Morpheus, always in support of this Metamorphosis forged in the lore of orpheus Born a scorpion, scorn norm’s in accordance with Forfeiting order for the glory of the fortunate Sceptic the apprentice, trodden felt inauthentic Machete my direction, eccentric its incentive Even when this - ambition was meditation Never dissuaded or suggested a second wasted Never once persuaded for occupation convention Any notion of surrender? Nope. Argued against it Reminiscing chat's when dad could find acceptance "Enjoy Japan chap, I gather you’ll be my Zen kid." Could never comprehend it, where his path had ended Never the less - stay, together, through relentless Challenges and bends that, threaten our very essence Half the shit, can’t have imagined it, if we dreamt it Penchant towards apocalypse, well prepped and competent Optimists pressing on, the swamps into ominous Is that all you got? Finger to god with confidence Winter starts here, Starks got nothing on the lot of us Bottomless heart's, problem is I feel a stranger To a sister that I love, cause I don’t know how to save her The stubborn son, no surrendering, time for payment To my family, what can I say? your are appreciated Every kind ear, learned words of encouragement Every meal, every bus fair, all the nurturance Shelter from the turbulence you decent epidermis's In all earnestness I’m forever at your service.